It's been a while, a long while since I wrote my blog. It isn't because I didn't have any thing to say, but I was moving through life at a very fast pace. I had wanted to write the story of a life time only to realize that I needed more than a few moments here and there.
I wanted to get into shape and realized that its hard work and I am still a project in progress.
I wanted to get healthy but realized giving up chocolate is not an option and am still trying to figure out where did my self-control go? Why have I let myself come to such a stage where every part of me needs to be fixed?
Or maybe it's not me that needs fixing. Perhaps its the world around me that needs fixing?
When will I learn to look at myself in appreciation instead of derogation? As always, there are never any easy answers and so the days pass.
I have had alot of time to reflect and think. Mostly because I have had an ACL tear and had to be operated on. The right knee is now slowly gaining strength and I have been spending sleepless nights in contemplation whenever the pain subsides and allows my mind to think.
It is amazing- how we function as humans. I have more respect for my knees and legs now than before, realizing that without their cooperation, there is very little I can do. And being surrounded by so much love, makes me humble. Knowing that I have a mother and father who have the energy to support me and bear me makes me feel blessed. A child who is an inspiration for all she faces makes me feel joyful and proud that she is my child.
Perhaps all is not so wrong in the world. And perhaps it's only our attitude that needs fixing and not the world.
So take some time and let me know your thoughts on what you are contemplating on these days.
With love and peace
Prasantha
